For What I Could Never Own

Surrounded by a melee

Of loved ones, kin and friends

Still I look beyond

Searching for the unknown

Even in crowd, I am all alone

A handful proffered

Yet my hands do not come together

To cup the things that I owned

My restless soul

I do not find peace

Even with myself

Nor with anyone else

Now I dread life

With each passing day

It draws near

To the final truth

There is no love

Yet, I do not fear

I am already dead

In spirit, all feelings have bled

I yearn for happiness

My darkened soul

Though will go to hell

For I deserve no pity

My heart aches for love

Love I spurned

Still I look beyond

For what I could never own

My Reward, Shall Not Deny

The days are numbered

Of defeat, of shame, of my wretchedness

I wanted to fly

But my wings have been tied

I wanted to have my say

But pushed behind, in a corner I lay

The days are numbered

Shackles will be broken, bonds forgotten

Whatever it takes

For freedom shall be mine

And I will fly

Make my foray in the sky

The vast expanse

My reward, shall not deny